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144 – General Update on Me

Written by Marie on October 20, 2020. Posted in Uncategorized. No Comments on 144 – General Update on Me

i have had some deadlines at work prohibiting me to be here as much as i have been in recent months. But now most of that is behind me and i should be able to post more frequently again.

But i thought a general all-around update could be nice for those who wonder these things…..

COVID – has of course caused everyone anxiety and stress. And we are all dealing with it in our own ways.

Overall, i think i have mentally adjusted to the new-Normal. For us in Texas but also personally, that means masks worn in public places, and especially inside buildings. And always inside any building, unless eating and drinking. Stay reasonably and as far apart from others as possible. Don’t shake hands, or even fist/elbow bumps. Just don’t touch!

But other than that, our lives are “pretty much the way they were before covid.” So people asking about us going out – to dinner, to shop, to the movies, etc – my life is about the same as it was before.

i actually went to the movies just yesterday with my sister. We were the ONLY people in the theater. Literally. It was quite nice. i happen to think people are afraid of the germs (at say the theater) so they don’t go there. But that’s what makes it best for me…. when everyone else stays home, i get to go …. alone! No germs AND get popcorn too!

PIERCINGS – All of the piercings have healed quite nicely. The nipples are a tad sensitive when David gets too crazy pinching/pulling on them. But he’s aware of when that is and he stops. And the clit is the same really.

David says he likes putting his mouth on the jewelry and letting his tongue play with it. And i rather like letting him too! 🥰

i am about ready to go back to get the jewelry changed to something less about function and more about beauty. i am a bit afraid to change it out myself the first time, so i’ll go and watch them (and have them teach me) this first time. But now to pick out something that i deem “beautiful” too!

CHASTITY – hasn’t been done since before our Colorado summer vacation. i don’t want to do it now with the clit piercing. At least not for awhile. It fits so tightly, by design, i am afraid the clit piercing may get hurt, damaged, pull/pinch, etc. so i am intentionally not wanting it right now.

But i’m not really sure David ever much liked it anyway. He wanted me to control my urges to NOT play with myself without permission. And absent that, then fine, apply the chastity. But instead it was really me who wanted it. To help me control myself. i think David saw it as a crutch for myself. i think he wants me to want to submit…. voluntarily…. even if it’s hard. Whereas a chastity belt meant i had the ability to be (mentally) lazy and just rely on it. i feel i will need it again sometime, and i don’t think it was being lazy but rather helpful. So we shall see. But not for a bit until i absolutely know the clit is completely 100% healed.

BRA AND PANTIES– while i was given them back, i wear them sparingly. It isn’t a given that they just go on in the morning. i don’t have to report to David when i wear them, but he still more-or-less expects that they are worn when necessary – and definitely not around him.

i happen to think that this will just always be my norm. i have basically not worn a bra now for 16-months and panties for close to the same. And i am good with this!

It worked on my favor yesterday when i was dressing for work and getting ready to leave. David came up behind me, and hugged me in a spooning way. His arms wrapped around me and cupped my breasts. He said, “yum… no bra!” And i smiled and said, “yes, of course, Sir”. He then moved his hands south and pulled up my dress and said, “no panties too! Perfect! Now go lay on the bed and get your reward”

And he proceeded to get me wet until i was allowed to orgasm….. (yes, i ask permission to orgasm every time too. Still.).

NAKED – i am still struggling with this. i am not sure i like it… but not sure i don’t. i have gotten used to being naked to sleep. But then when i awake, i want to put clothes on. i suspect some of it is “that’s what you are supposed to do.” But some of it is practicality, with our son at home … but also i get cold without clothes on!

Our son is a Junior in HS . So in another 2-years he will be off to college. Maybe by then, i will have embraced the nakedness and with him out of the house, do it all the time.

(Or maybe by then, my clit will have healed and i’ll have embraced chastity again and sport that around the house! Lol)

EXERCISE – well… chocolate still calls my name periodically and i have to tell her to sit down and shut up. And that’s hard. And Exercise still calls my name too, and i want to tell her to sit down and shut up. But i don’t. i walk 2-miles a day, most days. On days of bad weather, i don’t. But otherwise, that’s become the norm. i have lost 5 lbs, and i am happy with the progress. Hopefully it continues! i am thinking of getting a treadmill though because with the shorter/winter days starting to become a thing, i get scared to walk alone at night. And i am afraid this pattern (of walking and getting exercise) may end if i am not vigilant.

BJ – well, like i have said before, it is super hard to find 4-people who ALL like one another. So this started with promise, but looks to have faded. And unfortunately will likely die out. Maybe not enough sunshine, or water…. but the relationship grew and then suddenly the green-thumb turned brown. Makes me sad, but it isn’t entirely unexpected. If we ever find a couple that we are entirely compatible with, i will be thrilled. But i am highly skeptical too. So we will continue to just have periodic fun as it comes about.

ADDITIONAL FICTION STORIES– Probably coming soon. i was thinking of moving it to a website like Literotica though too. i realize that it is kinda an extension of me. It’s not real, and hasn’t ever been. Instead it is the things that go on in my head and start as a result of something that was real. Kinda like “x and y happened in real life. And then it got me to thinking that z would’ve been a nice next step.” So it sometimes gets confusing to me, and i think possibly some of you also. As in “what is real-real and what is not??”

SPANKING – and Discipline – and Maintenance – Because of my big deadline at work, David gave me a free pass on the Maintenance Friday sessions. We haven’t done it now for 3-weeks.

And i’ve been a good-girl and haven’t had to receive punishment in a long time now.

All very good! But as much as i’d tell you i am not a fan of the actual discipline, the knowledge of my place in our marriage and letting David be in control makes me very happy.

And when we aren’t doing as much discipline (like now), i can always tell when things are slipping “out of the ordinary” and needing to be “put back in place.” And we are about there.

So i may have to ask to be spanked soon, but i really HATE the actual discipline too. So it’s a double edged sword. i will likely insist on it on Friday. And i have no doubt, my bottom will end up quite sore from me insisting it happens and it is “appropriately intense.” But i truly think i am to the place that i NEED it.

i sometimes think needing to be spanked feels like an addiction… where at the moment, i am going through withdrawal and detox. And i don’t like it. So i crave the discipline. Chew on that for just a hot minute!!

That’s it!

That’s all i can think of for now. Anything i missed?

And i have been receiving more emails too, so i’ll probably continue to work my way through those in upcoming posts as well.

Hugs,

Marie

136 – Pierced again.

Written by Marie on September 23, 2020. Posted in Uncategorized. No Comments on 136 – Pierced again.

i apparently have a piercing addiction. But i think i’m done now.

i have gotten the hood of my clit pierced this past weekend. Most people think it’s the actual clit that gets pierced, but it’s not. At least not for most people anyway. It’s the flap of skin just above it that covers it up and gives protection to it.

That hood protects the clit for sure, but when it is pierced, a bar sits on top of it and causes it to be stimulated anytime you move.

And i got my hood pierced.

i wanted to do it when i did the nipples but David said no. He didn’t want me to have too much done at once for the cleaning, recovery process, healing. And of course, if i got all 3-of the main sexual-body-parts pierced at the same time, he would be on the sideline for awhile since there wouldn’t be another player on the field to play with.

And he doesn’t do sidelines well!

But the nipples have healed quite nicely now and he gave permission to get the hood pierced too!

So i did it!

i have wanted this for a long time but many years ago, i couldn’t have even imaged (let alone gone and down) opening my legs and bared my pussy to someone (likely a man) to touch it and to pierce it! i wasn’t even concerned then about the piercing itself or the pain, it was the humility of exposing myself that was my ultimate hang up.

But now with our D/s marriage, and David getting me when he wants it any way he wants, i have learned to not be (quite) so modest and a bit more open. (Ok, a bit probably isn’t the right word! My my how things have changed!!)

i did this 5-days ago. And it doesn’t hurt much at all now. In fact, i have to say it didn’t actually hurt much at all! It didn’t bleed one bit either.

The actual procedure was over and done in about 2-minutes. It was longer to ask questions ahead of time – cleaning process, healing process, what to expect, etc.

i laid on a table, just like those in a doctor’s office. He put one leg in a stir-up, like the OB GYN office, but the other leg fell off to the side.

The stems gets part was when the piercer said he had to clean the “underside of the hood, that sits on top of the clit” with alcohol. It was a strange mix of stimulation. Then he said, “Deep breath in…. and now out.” And on the “out,” i felt the piercing.

And then he screwed on the ends and i admired the jewels in my body’s lower genitals with happiness!

Five days later now it feels tender and almost like a slight bruise when it is irritated, but otherwise, it doesn’t have any pain at all. The piercer said “7-14 days to heal,” and i feel it is on track to be there.

In the meantime, i have been very careful to not touch or cause myself pain in anyway possible. i am also on best submissive behavior with David too. The last thing i need is to have to be spanked for poor behavior and possibly risk having pain “down there” accidentally from being punished.

And i am quite pleased with all the jewels i now sport!

But i can’t imagine piercing anything else either. i mean, what else is there anyway?!?!

Hugs,

Marie

94 – how do Pierced Nipples feel?

Written by Marie on July 23, 2020. Posted in Uncategorized. No Comments on 94 – how do Pierced Nipples feel?

Honestly…. this may be a boring post. Because… so far… 4-weeks in… having pierced nipples have been nothing exciting.

So to beef this up and tell you why it’s boring now…

i will go back to the actual piercing day.

i was super excited AND nervous. Allowing a needle and jewelry to pierce through one of the most sensitive areas on my body seemed like a dumb idea! But the look of pierced nips has always been attractive to me, and especially to Sir! He’s asked me for about 5 years now to do it. And it was a hard-limit, solid N-O! Until this year.

To be honest, i am not completely sure what made me move from Hard-NO to Hell-Yea. But. Here we are.

So a month ago, by myself, with Sir’s approval, i went to get them pierced.

i had several people offer to go with me, including Sir, but the piercing place doesn’t allow anyone to go inside unless you are getting pierced (due to COVID). So no friends, family, moral support allowed. And i wanted to do this by myself really anyway, so it worked.

So off i went. And it took a longgggg time too. i seriously almost chickened out. But i’m glad… NOW anyway... that i did it!

The piercing guy asked a lot of questions, i think to confirm: 1) i was consenting, 2) i was not drunk, 3) i knew what to expect.

i took down my dress top, he marked my nips with a marker, cleaned with alcohol, and said, “take a deep breath in….. and now let it out.”

And on the “out,” the needle pressed sharply in and all the way through my nipple. It was swift and sharp. Tears came to my eyes, but i knew it was over. At least for the first one anyway.

Then he repeated the process for the next one. He even said, “your brain knows what to expect, so this one will hurt more. But let’s ride the adrenaline high and get this done quick.”

And then there was a breath in and out and it was done again. He was definitely right! My brain figured it out in a hurry!

But i dressed, learned how to clean them, paid, and left.

The pain was intense but lasted for about 5-minutes. While the intense pain didn’t last, they were pretty tender and aggravated. Then negotiating the seatbelt was the first real challenge! It had to sit down right between them and not bother either of them. That’s still a bit of a continual challenge really, but it is getting better!

By the time i got home, they were swollen and throbbing. i think they were just mad at me. So i took ibuprofen and went to sleep. The next day they were really tender but not in pain.

Each day they feel better and better.

According to the piercer, they will take a full 2-months of heal, which means…… NO TOUCHING. Except to clean them. That’s it. (One of my girlfriends say it will take 6-months to heal… Lord, i pray not!)

So Sir hasn’t gotten to touch, play, lick, pull, twist, or any other thing to them… and all he gets to do is gaze upon them.

i have noticed though that no bra is better than a bra on. the bra on was smashing them against my chest and whenever i moved around, they rubbed up against the fabric and got irritated. So while Sir doesn’t want me to wear a bra anyway, this month i have seriously embraced that look! Which is allowing him to gaze, fairly easily (overall) now too.

i did think you’d be able to see the barbell and the nip show through the clothing… meaning 3-bumps on each side for the onlooker. But actually, you can’t see the barbell through any clothes at all. And i have chosen clothing-appropriate attire for work too, of course.

Sleeping has been a bit of a challenge. My right one seems to be heeling well but the left is a lot more sensitive. The left seems like it will take more than 2-months at the rate we are going right now. And when i sleep, naturally, i roll right onto my left side and there is a pain that shoots through it and wakes me up.

i have been ultra careful to ensure no accidental bumping anything has happened…… including Sir’s chest for a bear hug. i do LOVE his arms around me. And that has NOT happened. (Sigh!)

So we have another month to go… and then maybe i can give you a rip-roaring-exciting report about my nips getting a LOT of deserved attention. Or maybe not. We shall see if the healing process goes according to schedule. i pray it does. i am ready to be touched there again!

But other than that… i don’t “feel” the piercings at all. It’s just become apart of my body and kinda like wearing clothing. You don’t “feel” it after awhile.

[And next up……Sir has approved my clit hood getting pierced…. that will take one week to heal though. But still, i have to wait til the nips totally heal. Can’t have everything off limits at the same time!]

So lastly… i’ll talk about how it feels to be submissive….. tomorrow. On a Friday = Maintenance Day.

Hugs,

Marie

71 – 21 times to change a habit – that’s the goal!

Written by Marie on June 28, 2020. Posted in Uncategorized. No Comments on 71 – 21 times to change a habit – that’s the goal!

Most people have heard the phrase “it takes 21-days to change a habit”. Whether that’s fact or fiction remains unproven really, either way, David decided i am going to do a task this week 21-times without failing.

What is that task?

Edging. NO orgasm allowed. At least not by my hand. And i am not allowed to ask him to do it either. He may decide to touch me or allow me to orgasm on his own, but it will be at his decision and not mine.

i do NOT like edging. IT SUCKS! It sucks because it feels SOOOOO good… and yet requires absolute control. It is just Goal-oriented and not Pleasure-oriented. And absolutely NO indulging. NO losing myself in the sensations and the good vibe feelings it creates.

3 times a day for one solid week. Twenty-one times. In 7-days.

NO exceptions.

NO ability to NOT do it ….. or worse…. NO ability to go over the edge without him knowing because he is requiring every session to be either on video or in his presence. NO exceptions. At all.

He made it clear that i am truly expected to go TO-THE-EDGE….

And if it means i have to stop and restart again, just to ensure i go to the edge, i am to push my ability to GO-TO-THE-VERY-EDGE!

Twenty-one times in seven days. NO going over the edge. NO exceptions.

THIS is my GOAL for the next 7-days, 21- times. Goal-oriented. NOT pleasure-oriented.

When i asked, “what if i misjudge the edge and go over?”

i was told, “severe punishment will ensue. And then you’ll start the 21-times all over again until you accomplish this task successfully. And since you will want to orgasm pretty badly by the end, I am confident you can do this!”

(i’m certainly glad at least one of us is confident!)

Now you may be asking, “what prompted THIS?”

Ever since getting my nips pierced, i have been SO sex’d up and feeling SO turned on… that i have NEEDED Sir to allow me to orgasm. And he’s annoyed by this. Too much. i pushed his limits!

i haven’t exactly been submissive about it either. Yesterday i wore a dress and no panties… i was feeling SO needy i “conveniently” lifted my dress when he was on the couch, and my puss just happened to end up rubbing right up against his hand… and i smiled seductively and said, “do you want to use me?”

i got a big-fat- NO. And he swatted my clit and said, “you need to stop”. OUCH!… physical and mental!

And i went to bed without being touched or satisfied. Truly i thought it was done though because he didn’t act like it was anymore than that. But i was wrong.

This morning… he announced “this week we will teach you a lesson. You need to recognize that I know I can touch you anytime I want. But it is when I want, not when you want. YOU are not in control. You know this, but you don’t always show or act like it. And after yesterday’s stunt, you clearly need to learn to control your sexual desires. I love it when you dress sexy and give me serious eye candy, but I don’t like it when you push yourself on me like you did. That’s too demanding and completely unnecessary.. and clearly NOT the submissive that we both know (and love) that you are. You need to be patient and wait for me to be the one to satisfy you, at a time when it satisfies me!”

And that’s when he told me my task for the week. That my sexual needs will now be amped up at my own hand…. before my sexual needs are satisfied at the end of 7-successful days at his hand (or tongue or cock). And that’s when i’ll get to orgasm. And not until then.

“Yes Sir. Thank you Sir for the discipline and showing me you love me enough to want to help me do better. i love you Sir.”

“I love you too my sweetheart. Now go be a good girl and start your first edging for the day.”

Yes Sir.

i sure hope my goal is met in JUST 7-days!

i’ll let you know just how frustrated i do indeed get this week… this will be a very long week!

Hugs,

Marie

70 – insecurity and reassurance needed

Written by Marie on June 27, 2020. Posted in Uncategorized. No Comments on 70 – insecurity and reassurance needed

If you think i am confident in my own skin, lifestyle, and person… you are mostly right, but like everyone, sometimes doubt creeps in and i question everything. Okay, maybe not “everything”, but still.

Today was one of those days.

i reallyyyyyyy like my nipple piercings. (If you haven’t already, read this post first — > Happy Birthday to Sir).

i did both of them. It didn’t hurt nearly like i expect either during or now after. In fact, they don’t really hurt at all sometimes and i forgot i even did it. And at its worst, i’d categorize the pain at a “level 2”, so not much. But today… i doubted myself.

The pain comes and goes and when at “level 2”, the pain is a throbbing feeling. i think it is the blood flow learning to move around differently and it causes some throbbing. i know this will ease and eventually that won’t even be a thing.

But as it was throbbing, i pulled my shirt down and looked at my pierced nipples. As in, REALLY LOOKED at them. And i found fault.

Not in the piercing itself, but everything else… here were my thoughts…..

“my nipples aren’t that big, the aureolas aren’t that big. Those bar bells look stupid being so big. Why did i do this?”

“i am almost 50-years old. This was not something that someone my age should have done. Will i die with these in? What will someone think when i am 70- with these in?”

“i acted irrationally and just ‘did this’ too quickly. i didn’t even think this through. Maybe i just did it to please Sir and i don’t even know if he ‘r-e-a-l-l-y’ likes them”

TIMEOUT….. in my not-so-deep-in-my-head moments…

While some of it is true… my boobs are large (38-D) but nips and aur’s are small(er), i DID think about the piercings a LOT. i did do it for me, and yes Sir too, but not JUST him), and I DO like them and i KNOW he loves them!

But yesterday, i was my own worst enemy and lost confidence and doubted my recent actions.

i was alone at the time, and that was probably my first problem! But it was also about the time when i got a text from Sir. It said, “I just got a 90-minute massage all focused on my back. In talking with the masseuse, she pierced her nipples the same day as you.”

And then a pic of her pierced nipples came through too.

Now some of you may be wondering about his fidelity to me, why was he looking at her nips, etc. but that’s not what this post is about and i wasn’t the least bit concerned about that. i’ll address that another day.

What’s more is… i didn’t even think about the fact that he had a pic of her, that he was actually talking about mine, nothing.

What i focused on when i saw that pic was all the things that i was not. She had about the same size breasts as me, but larger nipples. And her jewelry had pink barbells, where mine is just ordinary plain silver. And i decided i liked hers more and got even more “upset” with myself in the process.

Sir had NO idea i was “in my head” at the time. He has been known to tell me, “get out of your head and join us in the real world.” And had he known what i was doing and thinking at the time, he likely would’ve said this to me.

i texted him back and said, “hers look better than mine with her larger nipples. i’ve never liked my smaller nipples and i don’t know that the piercings look as good on me as they do on her.”

He immediately wrote back, “I like yours. I have always liked yours and they look even better now with the piercings! She likes yours too. She basically said the same about yours as you did about hers.” (We took “before and after” pics of mine…..and if i get brave enough and David approves for me to ever show a pic of myself on here, i will show you…. but not now…sorry!. But he definitely must’ve showed her those pics of me).

TIMEOUT again…………

So this is where i truly sat back, rewound, and gave this whole situation more thought……..

Sir is CLEARLY …..V-E-R-Y … happy with ME…. before piercings and even more after! So much so, he is talking to a masseuse he just met, when he’s not with me, and “I” am on his mind! (i capitalized that “I” to emphasize that “I” was who he was thinking about. “I” was who he’s talking about. And “I” am who he is in love with!)

When i responded to his text, i just said, “really?” And he said, “YES. Are you doubting me?”

And i thought to myself, “No, i was actually doubting myself.”

Reassurance …. sometimes it is needed. Sometimes it comes in ways we wouldn’t expect (getting a text of another woman’s pierced nipples). Sometimes it comes when we need it most (when he talks about me to a complete stranger – Because he’s in love with ME and then tells me about it). Sometimes it’s in his touch (when he got home, while he knows he can’t touch the piercings until they are healed or it could risk infection, he instead cupped my breasts and squeezed the bottom sides and smiled big at me….. then proceeded to kiss me with passion and desire… like a “you are mine, ownership” desire.

And suddenly, i was in love with my nipples and the piercings they hold. And of course, my David. My husband, HoH, lover, and best friend!

(And btw… after the healing occurs, in about 2-months, i’ll change out the jewelry to pretty-pretty stuff…. maybe hoops that he can attach a chain from the nips to the clit…. 😋🙋‍♀️🥰😍☺️)

Hugs,

Marie