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215 – My 50th Birthday Gifts

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My 50th birthday is on Thanksgiving this year. November 25. Next week. Fast approaching. In the month of NO-orgasm-VEMBER.

It’s unclear and Sir is still undecided if i will be allowed to orgasm on my birthday or not.

Last week we were talking about what gifts i would like to receive for my birthday. My immediate response was, “An explosive orgasm.”

To which he responded, “what else?”

i said, “a new purse please Sir.”

And he said, “A new purse it shall be.”

When i asked, “what about the orgasm?” his response was, “I’m undecided about that. I asked what gifts you’d like to receive, and your orgasm is definitely a gift I could give, but then again… what month still remains on the calendar?”

At first i wasn’t sure if that was a rhetorical question or not but something told me i was supposed to respond, so i said, “November Sir.”

And his only word in response was, “E-X-A-C-T-L-Y.”

And that was the end of that discussion.

That will be the last we will discuss that. i am certain. And that’s ok. The gift of orgasm is indeed his to give, and i will wait until it is allowed. While it has now been TWO WEEKS since my last O, i accept it isn’t up to me when the next one happens.

i won’t lie, because it’s officially still NO-orgasm-vember, i kinda do NOT want David to allow it. But on the flip side, it IS my birthday and i only turn 50 ONCE, so i really DO want it! (And did i already mention….it’s already been TWO-WHOLE-WEEKS since my last O. And i don’t remember the last time i went this long……. Like ever! And still almost another week…. Geez!)

If you think about it, your sexual pleasure and happiness truly IS a gift from your partner, and isn’t something you should feel entitled to. Always. In all sexual relationships, including vanilla ones.

But of course in most relationships, if you don’t get it from your partner, you seek it elsewhere…. By your own masturbating hand OR another partner OR both., because you feel entitled to it.

Admittedly, sometimes i can be the same way. But most of the time, i do indeed see it as a GIFT. (And after more than two weeks, it will be a BIG gift when i get to feel that pleasure again!)

What would YOU do if you were my Sir? Would you allow me to orgasm on my 50th or no??!!?

i thought of what i think is the perfect compromise…. (And i already told Sir about this, to which he laughed.. cuz he knows me THAT well!)

i suggested he make me wear Glory. And he makes me suck him hard. After which, he uses my ass hole to his pleasure. (There’s a big hole through the belt that allows him/me/anyone all access to that hole).

i suggested he fuck me hard and fast with that back hole, while i am on all 4’s. Neither of us touch my clit or pussy as it would be all locked up nice and tight!

But….

If i can orgasm without being touched AND while being locked in chastity then i can do so. Otherwise, no!

As i said before… he laughed. He knows i’d orgasm. Easily. Especially now when i am SO much in heat and need it!

He then said, “nice try!”

He then said, “by the time I allow you to orgasm, you could likely cum on my command without touching you anywhere at all!”

He THEN added, “you do realize we didn’t start this No-orgasm-vember on the first? You do realize I could chose to extend this into December in order to get the full 30-days I feel I am entitled to receive?” (There’s that word “entitled” again! But in this case, i think he IS entitled to use the word and to feel the emotion. i willingly submit to him, making things like my O fall under his purview!)

All this makes me think NO, i will NOT be orgasming on Thanksgiving…… aka, my 50th birthday!

And maybe not for awhile into December too!

So i’ll ask it again… if YOU held the gift of my orgasm in the palm of your hand, would you give it to me on:

A) Nov 25, my 50th birthday

B) Nov30, end of No-vember

C) Dec 6th, officially 30-days from the last O, OR

D) some other date at your discretion, to keep me guessing

???

Hugs,

Marie

130 – Moscato

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While not a new wine, Moscato is a sweet, white wine that has been one of the best selling wines in the US for many recent years now. It is made from one of the oldest and most versatile grapes ever known to be grown, believed to originally been from Greece.

When David & i arrived at the restaurant, B&J were already there and were each enjoying a glass of moscato. They aren’t big wine aficionados but everyone can enjoy a glass of moscato for sure.

Moscato is traditionally thought of as a dessert wine but is becoming more popular as a before dinner drink, or even one to enjoy with spicy foods. Plus it has a lot of flavor… and especially a sweetness to it.

i thought it was appropriate that they were drinking this wine when we arrived….. as it justly described our evening.

Versatile. Traditional. Sweet. Old. New. Popular.

That’s the underlying theme and taking those words as inspiration……..

BJ have been married for 12 years and David & i for (almost) 20. We are not young, but certainly not OLD either since we all know that age is (mostly just….) a mind set. We have all been chatting in a group chat for about a month, so we knew a lot about each other already. Namely, that we all knew and trusted that we would go home with the one who we came with, but have a lot of fun in between too! And let’s not forget about how we that we think this could be an amazing match together!

All that and i don’t think i’ve asked how long they have been having sex with others and departing from the TRADITIONAL idea of marriage. But from the other conversations about how other dates (with other couples) for all of us have gone, they weren’t new to swinging and of course neither are we.

While everyone has to always have that maiden virgin voyage, i have learned that experience counts for a lot. There’s no surprises on how each of the partners will react to seeing their spouse on top of another person.

In fact, with experience comes wisdom. We had all talked beforehand about our thoughts when we see our spouse fucking another. And we all agreed…. we think it’s hot.

So we set out on this NEW adventure together a few weeks back, as you know, and on this particular date…. we started by drinking wine over dinner together.

(And i gained liquid courage along the way too!)

When we were done eating, we took a short walk to the hotel we rented just nearby. Our room number was #1234. Not joking. How appropriate that we had 1-2-3-4 people about to enjoy each other’s company in a very VERSATILE and non-traditional way.

In the past and on this night too, i start to get stage fright as the time grows nearer to the curtain pull. i don’t quite know why, except that i suppose it’s just raw nerves setting in. Not nervous about David/i, but all the other things like……. what will they think, will i measure up, has the anticipation and build up been too much to live up too……i could go on. But suffice to say, on this date night i felt more of that same OLD feeling rising up in me again too.

But the biggest thing i get nervous about is….. HOW DO WE START?

It’s strange to just take off your clothes to experience the feeling of being raw and exposed, and yet we don’t live in the movies with some hot kissing scene where they scramble to pull each other’s clothes off too. So getting started is the hardest part.

That’s where we were all at as we walked into the room. David laid on one of the beds, fully clothed as if ready to watch tv. And B sat down on the other, as J&i just stood there. That’s when she said it. She recognized the big strange elephant and said, “ok, so we are nervous and feeling awkward.” And we all laughed.

i used that moment to summon my courage and overcome the stage fright and ultimately be the POPULAR one in the room. i said, “yeah, i feel the same way too! But i won’t let this moment last another second.”

That’s when i reached down, grabbed the bottom of my top, and pulled it up and over my head in one sweeping motion. And in keeping with my usual mode, i had no bra on so i was then standing there on full display from the waist up. And i just said, “anyone else want to join me?”

i wasn’t sure where this surge of bravado was coming from, but i wasn’t going to let stage fright – amongst all of us apparently – allow this date to go sour with one bad grape in this bottle of wine!

And with that, i pulled my pants, along with the sexy panties i had on that i had planned to show off, but screw it… they came off too. i was here to be screwed, not mess with the bottle opener just trying to get the cork out of the bottle.

So i was completely naked and the other 3 then followed my lead and got naked also. As the men stood up to undress, i took advantage of the empty bed and laid down on my back and open my legs wide. That’s when David came over and took a quick lick between my legs, but swiftly stepped aside where he invited B to fill his place. And David grabbed up J in his arms where they laid down on the other bed and started to do the same on their bed as we did on ours.

And that’s when B’s tongue collided with my clit. i have to say, no man has been able to ever match that of David’s tongue. Until now. B did an amazing blow job on me. And one i will eagerly want to have repeated!

It was no surprise that in no time flat, i was having an orgasm! (Hallelujah! The wait was over!)

i was at least smart enough to have asked David earlier in the day if i could cum without asking permission every time. He had said, “yes, you may cum as much as you like!”

(Side note….. i think B is fascinated by the idea of edging, orgasm control, and “cum on command.” He has mentioned it a few times, but J doesn’t seem at all interested in having all that done to her! Maybe Sir will end up allowing B to control mine when we are together sometime. And being honest, i’d love to be ultimately submissive to the point i could cum on David’s command. Not sure if any of that is truly possible though. Who knows! But anywho….. that concludes this brief intermission and back to the story at hand….)

And orgasm i did!

i lost count of how many i experienced. B’s cock felt as good as his tongue. The night was all so wonderful that it got me to a tingling, relaxed state of mind as the intoxicating flavors of wine and sex spread all throughout my body.

We regularly also watched David & J and commented how hot that really was to see too. Ultimately we never all made it to the same bed to be physically together, but we were talking aloud to be mentally together …. and it was mentioned how the “next time” we need to all be physically together on the same bed too. (That’s when everyone’s body parts just start to get tangled up and you don’t quite know who is even touching who… a preview of what might happen on the next wine filled date!)

This was an amazing date that after swirling the wine in the glass for the last several weeks and finally getting to taste it on the palate, was filled with that lasting satisfying flavor that was especially SWEET.

i don’t know how POPULAR this post will be as i am sure there are many monogamists who will not be happy about my sexual preferences. That preference of tasting the many different flavors of wine, instead of just opting to be content with the single flavor that i have enjoyed now for nearly 20-years. And that’s ok. i know who i married and i know that we both enjoy a bit of variety every so often. And i know in the end, i will always come home to the flavor of the Pinot red wine that i most prefer.

But i won’t deny….. i’ll be anxiously awaiting to try the next glass of wine with BJ ….. probably something with a more bold and powerful flavor that will pack an even bigger punch… but let’s face it, the sweet flavor of Moscato is pretty damn good also!

Hugs,

Marie

126 – Spring Break ends

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Finally! Today is the first Day of School for our Son since Friday March 13…..

T-H-A-T explains everything……. the last day of school was Friday the 13th! That’s what caused COVID and home school and the longest Spring Break ever. Glad to finally have all the answers! Ha!

Seriously, today is the first day back to school and the first one he’s gotten to drive himself too! (He turned 16 in the middle of the shutdown.).

So i did not drink my coffee in the nude this morning. But our Son was hardly out of the driveway and David said, “You should probably go edge now.”

While i knew that meant there really was no maybe, should, could, might to it…. that’s not what he S-A-I-D. So i got all cheeky ….. or one might say bratty….. and said, “i think you should drop the passive and just be aggressive when speaking to me.” And i immediately got my ass out of the chair and went to do it. (i got a raised eyebrow and a look but i didn’t land myself in trouble! Thank Goodness!)

Then i got in the shower. And he came in and said, “you chose to shower instead of edge??”

i said, “i already edged.”

He said, “that wasn’t long enough.”

i said, “you weren’t explicit or clear about the time either. i need details if you have something in your head.”

He said, “when you get out, edge again. And then come find me so i can check how wet you are.”

So i did. i was definitely wet!

And he proceeded to play with my puss then too. He knows from my facial expressions when i am close to orgasm. He said, “Don’t cum! You don’t get to do that until Friday…. with B&J! We will do this daily to be sure you are wet and ready for them too!”

Great…. a (work) week of edging. Again…. this week just can’t go by fast enough!!!!!

Sooooo ready to see BJ on Friday night! Time to get schooled properly!!

And our son made it to school on time, early in fact, and texted me to tell me he was there. He was actually happy to start school and be back “to normal”. Now for the rest of us to get there too!!

Hugs,

Marie

23 – Cum on command AND only with permission

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Can you cum on command? i’m not allowed to touch myself without permission, and neither am I allowed to cum without permission.  In fact, i’m officially in ‘orgasm training’.  For anyone not familiar with that, it means i ask permission to cum and i can only do so when Sir says “yes, you may cum now.”

The idea is something like Pavlov’s dogs and i’ve even read stories about women who can ‘cum on command’.  They hear the words “yes, you may cum now” and even if they are in the grocery store, not being aroused or touched, cum on command.

i’m not entirely sure how i feel about that.  i want to be submissive, but cumming in the grocery store on command?  hmmm. 

On the one hand, that’s hot.  That’s erotic.  And that is submission at its finest!  i mean, even your BODY submits.  Not JUST your mind.

On the other hand, i’m not a dog.  Literally speaking here.  i’m NOT a “Pavlovian dog”. 

For what’s its worth, i’d say i cum MORE now than i did before.  Maybe it’s because David knows i’m not doing it on my own and maybe giving him that control is even more of a turn on?!  i dunno, but this is one happy sub.. until i cum in the grocery store without being touched! 

You?  Anyone want to cum on command?  Hot and sexy or dog-like?

Hugs,

Marie

16 – Submit even when you aren’t “Feeling it”

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i don’t know WHY i was having a “bad day”…. But i was.  Yesterday, i wasn’t “feeling it”.  i wasn’t feeling work, cooking, eating, nothing.  i just kinda wanted to be alone in my alone world.  In fact, i was feeling quite selfish overall.  i didn’t really recognize it for what it was until Sir pointed it out to me.

He said, “You are having a lot of trouble with this Submission thing today!”  And my first thought was, “No I’m not!”.  (Notice the capital “I”?? Read this post about that: https://wordpress.com/post/lovingdisciplinelife.com/69).

While i didn’t say it, it was true.  And i didn’t even realize it at the time either.

But he would be right.

So let me back up to the morning….. rewind…..  yesterday morning….

i was horny.  He knew it.  And he had to leave before me.  So he told me to masturbate.  But because we are doing Orgasm control too (see this post for more on that: https://wordpress.com/post/lovingdisciplinelife.com/95), he told me i had to “Masturbate to the edge, but DO NOT CUM, 4 x’s on repeat and THEN ask permission to cum.”

So that’s exactly what i did.  And he said i could.  And i was SO thankful.  i wouldn’t have been happy at all if he’d said no.  But alas, he didn’t, so i did.  And boy was it sooooo nice!

But THEN, he texted about 2-minutes later and said, “But now you have to wear the tack bra for having masturbated 2-days ago without permission.”  (Which i had and he busted me on!).

i begged, “NO please, Sir.  i really need to focus at work today and i don’t want to have to wear that.  Can i just wear it from the time i get home?!” And he did (Thankfully) relent.

And nothing else was said about it.  And my work day was stressful.  i came home tired and feeling so tired.  And since NOTHING else had been said about it, when i got home,  i didn’t put on the tack bra.

Then an hour later, i got in my favorite PJ’s (NOT his favorite – pants, top, made of cotton, super soft, but super “mom” and not at all “sexy”).  And didn’t say a word, just climbed into bed to play on my ipad a bit.

THAT was when he came in and told me i was struggling to be submissive.  i think he knew i didn’t have the tack bra on.  But he more-or-less let it go.  And i was happy.

Then today came….

And i felt guilty.  i felt very un-submissive in my behavior yesterday.  So without being told or asked, i just put on the tack bra anyway.

Now you have to understand, this was **THE** first time i’d actually been told to wear it since it was made.  But he told me, “If you make it, you better be prepared to wear it!” – and i wasn’t!

At least last night.  But today, i was determined to be a better submissive wife.

OUCH!

Okay, so putting it on wasn’t a big deal – not as much as i’d imagined anyway.  My imagination had gone crazy thinking how awful this would be.  So i went about getting ready for work.

And Sir texted me.  And here’s how the texting went:

Sir: “You should cum”.

Me: well, i had to clarify, “Is that a suggestion or a requirement?”

Sir:  one word, “Requirement”.

Me: “i’m not exactly feeling horny.  Do i have to?”

Sir:  “You need to start realizing that it doesn’t matter if you ‘feel’ it or not.  Now DO IT!”

Me:  “Yes Sir”.

Sir:  “Send me a picture”.

And the picture had the tack bra showing in it too.

Sir then texts:  “You put it on?  Without me telling you?”

Me: “Technically speaking, you DID tell me to put it on and i felt particularly unsubmissive in my actions and behaviors yesterday, and needed to make amends.”

Sir:  “Good girl!”

Me:  But oh-my-gosh – after moving around to masturbate and cum – when i wasn’t even horny and had to get myself to that point without ‘feeling it’ was PAINFUL with a tack bra on!  Holy H-E-Double Hocky sticks!

Me to Sir:  “Sir, i know you told me to wear this.  And technically, i have.  But it is SERIOUSLY hurting already and i haven’t left the house.  Can i have permission to NOT wear it to work, please?”

Sir:  “Because you recognize your own need for discipline and because you realize you did not follow orders without having to make me administer discipline, I will allow you to not wear it to work.  This time.  But get your attitude in check, and remember YOU ARE NOT IN CHARGE AT ALL ANYMORE! or next time you WILL wear it out of the house until i tell you otherwise!”

Me:  “OH THANK YOU SIR!”

SO – Sir is seriously taking on the Dom role nicely.  i am having to learn that i am really NOT in control anymore.  i have to remember that even when i don’t ‘feel like it”, Sir just might be.  And i am not capital, but lower case.

And i love it!  i wouldn’t have it any other way.

Next time though – my breasts may take a beating, right along with my ass too.  Let’s hope i’ve learned my lesson and don’t “FEEL” particularly unsubmissive anytime too soon!
Hugs and Kisses ~

Marie