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61 – who would volunteer?

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One question i find to be a bit silly is “do we need to have an attitude adjustment?”

When i was asked this as a kid and now as a submissive wife in a DD relationship, i know that the “attitude adjustment” is punishment…. aka: spanking.

Who would ever say, “why Y-E-S, we do need an attitude adjustment!” Let’s go get that done now!”

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i mean seriously, if you think i need an attitude adjustment.. just do it already. But maybe it was just an opportunity to change my behavior before HE decided i needed an attitude adjustment. Either way……

No. Not me.

So guess what i said today when asked that? NO. Capitalized. But not rude. Just firm.

Just curious … what do YOU say?!?!

Hugs,

Marie

DAY 8 – My Submissiveness

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So i have NOT kept up with the 30-days of submissiveness postings, but i want to resume those. It may prove to be intermittent and not “daily”, but i think that’s okay too. So…. day 8…..

DAY 8 : LOOK!Post a kinky image you find erotic. Briefly describe what arouses you most in the image.

This prompt has caused me so much angst. i am struggling to pick just one image, so i decided to do more than just one…. in no particular order…

Pic 1: spanking… the very essence of Domestic Discipline:

Spanking is a real part of my relationship with David. Spanking a bare bottom, that has been offered up freely to a dominant, Hoh is acknowledging that i am not in control. Ever.

In addition, i should always look, smell, and sound appealing to him.

Pic 2: the paddle

David’s favorite disciplinary tool is the paddle. My paddle looks quite similar to this one. i hate the paddle … that it is (ever) even needed. But i love that David and i have found this lifestyle that works too. No fighting … verbally or physically… takes place in our home (when we are in our mode of DD anyway!). i freely accept the paddle as a necessary tool to keep our marriage where we both want it to be.

Pic 3: afterward…

Almost always after the paddle, he allows me to cum. It depends if it’s a true punishment or a maintenance (“stay the course reminder and reward for doing so”) though too. Punishment can’t ever be rewarded with sexual pleasure or else it would make me WANT to be bad.

Pic 4: why i do what i do….

YES, i do truly believe that if i can’t submit to my husband, i will never be able to truly submit to God’s authority either. God said in the Bible women are to submit and men are to love.

Pic: And last one….

i have a strong fantasy desire to be the center of attention for a room full of people – men and women. To be tied up and put on display and/or use, however, the party- goers wish to use me is their desire and my command. To be an ultimate party-favor, for the duration of the party and to serve any person’s whim. We shall see if this ever happens… i mean, it IS a fantasy and sometimes they come true.

Hugs,

Marie

60- who snaps the hardest?

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i managed to get myself into trouble today. i got very stressed out in a situation that was timed and had a deadline, and David was only trying to help. But he caused my stress to go up because i had a plan and just needed to execute it. So i snapped at him, “ok, fine! I got this. Go do your thing now and let me do this!”

And T-H-E very second it came out of my mouth i regretted it. But too late. Damage done.

David just gave me a look that said it all. i could read his expression and it said, “I know you didn’t just talk to me that way!”

And i immediately responded with, “i am sorry Sir, that was an unintentional snap.”

He calmly said, “I’m sure I will have an Intentional snap very soon where I will accept your apology”.

i knew that meant the snap of the paddle pressing hard against my ass.

i had no choice but to face the consequences of my stupid, stressed-out, speak-before-i-think actions.

Thankfully, he walked away and allowed me to refocus and get the deadline met. i got the work done in time and turned in with 2-minutes left.

(NO, i did not procrastinate. It was simply an assignment with a super tight deadline and the clock was not my friend.)

Spankings during this social distancing time have been hard to do because they are not quiet events and our son is home more than ever.

And as luck would not be in my favor, the first time since mid-March, my son’s BF invited him over to their house and since it was just the two of them (and BF’s fam), i said yes.

So an hour later, our son was out of the house. David and i ate dinner and i just knew that i should be in position to accept the spanking (soon). So i just went to the bedroom without being told. Striped naked. Per usual. Leaned over with my elbows on the bed and feet flat on the floor. Ass sticking straight out, available for use.

So after getting into position, i waited, for one hot second. And here he came.

He grabbed the paddle and started peppering my ass to warm it up. The warm up stings. It feels like mosquito bites hanging up on my bottom.

As he did this, he asked, “going to snap at me?”

i said, “no Sir”

“Why not now? You did earlier. You seemed to think it was ok then!”

i responded with, “it was wrong.“

And he said, “good answer…now. Too bad you didn’t think before you spoke before. And now your ass is going to sting when we are done so that you remember you don’t get to snap at me. Or else I will snap at you. And my snaps will hurt far more than your snaps could ever do.”

i lost count. He was right. The snaps were so many. And what’s more is he didn’t actually swing hard or powerful. It was just snapping. And the more he did, the more it stung.

i estimate i received around 200 “snaps” in all. All with the paddle. All in about 10’ish minutes. Not much force at all actually, but more or less in the same spot. Over and over again.

And then it was finally over. For today. But alas, tomorrow is maintenance.

As we lay in bed and i type this, he just rolled over, said good night, “I guess we will sting your butt again tomorrow. Because it IS Friday. Sleep well!”

In my head… “oh joy. Can’t wait. W-H-Y couldn’t it be any day but Friday tomorrow? My butt is still stinging even now, so I wonder how it will feel tomorrow.”

And out of my mouth, “thank you Sir. You sleep well also.”

He said, “good answer.”

Hugs,

Marie

57 – Plugged. Until further notice.

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So “the virus” has seriously caused me to be off-kilter or off-schedule or off-submission or off-DD. Or well… just “off”. Haven’t even posted… I’ve been that “off”.

And i learned some stuff about myself…. i do NOT submit well when it feels like everything is out of control. Or beyond my control. And i then (subconsciously) take back the control that i would otherwise given freely.

i have seen this behavior creeping in and David has allowed it. i say he’s “allowed” it because he hasn’t done anything (punishments!) to stop it, so by not stopping it, it was effectively allowed.

i admit – that upsets me. i wish he would stick to protocol and routine and enforce what we both like and know works! But he doesn’t and i didn’t either.

And today, i basically went over the edge of his tolerance for these allowances.

i won’t deny, today was basically intentional. It wasn’t me being a brat, so much as just being “in control” and testing David to see “how much is too much”.

What did i do, you ask?

First i took a bath. That doesn’t sound like much. But i take baths to soak, relax, and take “me” time. While David always approves, it is a rule that i am to ask permission to do so. i didn’t.

Then, i masturbated.

Then i inserted a plug in my ass. i rather enjoy the feeling. Most days. For awhile anyway. Of being filled. And it is a secret that no one can see or knows, except me. And David.

i told him i did these things. And when he asked me why. i said, “because i was feeling sexy and turned on and decided to satisfy myself.” His first response was a nod, eye brows raised and a sound that resembled a “hmm”. And he walked away.

About 5-minutes later, he texted me. (From him in the office of our home to me in the kitchen… not far!). And it said, “you didn’t ask”. i said, “i know. Should i take the plug out?”

And he said, “no. Not until tomorrow. And when I authorize it.”

Wow. Ok. Well. This will be a huge test. And ultimately feel like a punishment in the end. Admittedly- a deserved one!

i’ve never had a plug in for more than about 8-hours, and the few times i tried to sleep with it in, i failed.

How it feels:

The first few hours – a turn on, the next few hours – a bit uncomfortable, the last few hours – basically irritating and painful. And i ask to remove it and he agrees.

While he didn’t seem “mad”, i know he is…. or maybe the right word is disappointed.

This will be a test of my will power and endurance. And i wonder when i will break down and beg to be released. i don’t want to beg. Because i already know what he said – tomorrow. That should be enough. But i don’t know if i will make it. i will definitely be trying though!

And if i do beg – will he allow the release to happen.

Stay tuned. And until then, i am plugged until further notice.

Hugs,

Marie

DAY 7 : YOUR TOYBOX…What’s your favourite toy or item of equipment?

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i know i am behind… work has been crazy and has caused me to be away from you… so i will try to get caught up.

My favorite toy is the rabbit vibrator.

i love being told “start masturbating and don’t cum until i tell you.” And using my rabbit.

It’s a basic toy. i know. But sometimes, go back to the basics.

This is the second one i’ve had. i can cum faster than anything with that toy!

And just so you know… i have a large toy box.. handcuffs, finger cuffs, ropes, spreader bar, a lot of monster dildos, one that is custom made, inflatable dildo, a fist dildo, remote control bullets..

Oh speaking of bullet…Besides the rabbit, my 2nd fav toy is the remote control bullet. It is controlled by an app. Anywhere in the world. And when David takes control, it goes on/off at random times and is amazing!

Hugs,

Marie