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60- who snaps the hardest?

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i managed to get myself into trouble today. i got very stressed out in a situation that was timed and had a deadline, and David was only trying to help. But he caused my stress to go up because i had a plan and just needed to execute it. So i snapped at him, “ok, fine! I got this. Go do your thing now and let me do this!”

And T-H-E very second it came out of my mouth i regretted it. But too late. Damage done.

David just gave me a look that said it all. i could read his expression and it said, “I know you didn’t just talk to me that way!”

And i immediately responded with, “i am sorry Sir, that was an unintentional snap.”

He calmly said, “I’m sure I will have an Intentional snap very soon where I will accept your apology”.

i knew that meant the snap of the paddle pressing hard against my ass.

i had no choice but to face the consequences of my stupid, stressed-out, speak-before-i-think actions.

Thankfully, he walked away and allowed me to refocus and get the deadline met. i got the work done in time and turned in with 2-minutes left.

(NO, i did not procrastinate. It was simply an assignment with a super tight deadline and the clock was not my friend.)

Spankings during this social distancing time have been hard to do because they are not quiet events and our son is home more than ever.

And as luck would not be in my favor, the first time since mid-March, my son’s BF invited him over to their house and since it was just the two of them (and BF’s fam), i said yes.

So an hour later, our son was out of the house. David and i ate dinner and i just knew that i should be in position to accept the spanking (soon). So i just went to the bedroom without being told. Striped naked. Per usual. Leaned over with my elbows on the bed and feet flat on the floor. Ass sticking straight out, available for use.

So after getting into position, i waited, for one hot second. And here he came.

He grabbed the paddle and started peppering my ass to warm it up. The warm up stings. It feels like mosquito bites hanging up on my bottom.

As he did this, he asked, “going to snap at me?”

i said, “no Sir”

“Why not now? You did earlier. You seemed to think it was ok then!”

i responded with, “it was wrong.“

And he said, “good answer…now. Too bad you didn’t think before you spoke before. And now your ass is going to sting when we are done so that you remember you don’t get to snap at me. Or else I will snap at you. And my snaps will hurt far more than your snaps could ever do.”

i lost count. He was right. The snaps were so many. And what’s more is he didn’t actually swing hard or powerful. It was just snapping. And the more he did, the more it stung.

i estimate i received around 200 “snaps” in all. All with the paddle. All in about 10’ish minutes. Not much force at all actually, but more or less in the same spot. Over and over again.

And then it was finally over. For today. But alas, tomorrow is maintenance.

As we lay in bed and i type this, he just rolled over, said good night, “I guess we will sting your butt again tomorrow. Because it IS Friday. Sleep well!”

In my head… “oh joy. Can’t wait. W-H-Y couldn’t it be any day but Friday tomorrow? My butt is still stinging even now, so I wonder how it will feel tomorrow.”

And out of my mouth, “thank you Sir. You sleep well also.”

He said, “good answer.”

Hugs,

Marie

59 – what will he say…. or what would you say?

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i sent this email to Sir about 15-minutes ago….. what do you think he will say in response? or what would you say?

Sir –
i’ve had an idea that i’d like you to consider. And implement at your discretion, if you like and want.

i’m calling is ESD. Extreme Submission Day(s). While i call it a “day”, that’s figurative and can be for as long or short as you desire.

The idea is that on that day, (my) ultimate submission is all that matters. It would be intense, required, and my entire focus for that day.

Each day would have a task for me to complete. If you like the task, you can call for it to be a regular ESD task, a permanent submission task, or never again. And if not completed to your satisfaction, punishment would be immediate.

All you have to do is say “ESD – today” (Or maybe you give advance notice – “this Thursday will be a ESD, so plan accordingly and be ready”). When the ESD is called, it is then my ultimate and only priority for the duration of the ESD.

When the ESD arrives, you lay out the focus or task for that day.

Here’s some examples of what i was thinking for possible ESD tasks:

1) i must remain within your eyesight at all times during the ESD. If you move, i move. If i have to do something (like bathroom break), where you are not, i have to ask permission and it’s your discretion to approve or not.

2) i remain completely naked for the duration of ESD, and you touch if/when you want. No covering up, even if i get cold.

3) i have three holes, at least one must be filled at all times. And only if a second one is filled can the first be emptied.

4) make me set an alarm (like maybe every 30 min or 60 min), and i must go edge for a set amount of time (like maybe 5-minutes) but never allowed to cum unless it’s by your hand and you decide to allow it.

5) i suck your cock for as long as you want and only stop when you say so.

6) i give you a seductive and relaxing massage, for as long as you want and only stop when you say. And maybe it’s with me being completely naked also.

7) you tell me the only words i am allowed to use are “yes Sir” or “no Sir” and nothing more regardless of what is said or done.


These are just a few ideas i have for ESD tasks. i could come up with that many more too, if needed.

The main purpose and reason i thought of this ESD is that by calling for “extreme submission” for a specific time period that when completed, would be a reminder that the “main stream submission” is easily attainable and maintained.

Please give this some thought. And either way, i respect your decision.

I love you!

Hugs,

Marie

58 – i Forced His Hand

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i have been C-O-M-P-L-E-T-E-L-Y frustrated….. with David.

So i told you last time our routine is nowhere near a “routine” right now. And i plugged myself. And he found it. And said i was to stay that way until further notice.

Well…. he initially said that would be the next day. And i cringed. Wondered how in the world i would accomplish that. But i deserved it and would figure it out. And i was doing just that.

My butt was getting sore though, but i refused to complain. i mean i sure as hell wanted to, but i didn’t. Why? Because i refused to be a brat about it. i earned the punishment and i wasn’t going to accept it. i ultimately felt pride that he cared enough to notice and do it, and pride in myself that i did indeed sign up for this lifestyle and was going to abide by it.

All for not.

He noticed i was starting to “dance” around. i couldn’t exactly get comfortable and the plug was starting to cause my butt to be very sore. And he inquired. So i spoke honestly.

That’s when he said, “if you want to take it out now, you can”.

What-the-Hell?

W-H-Y give out a punishment to just change your mind? Why even act like you care enough to punish if you really don’t? And how is this showing you as in charge?

i mean, let’s break this down….

1) a plug won’t (likely) cause permanent damage (when used in moderation)

2) having it in “too long” will just rub me raw, but that will heal.

3) a raw butt would just cause me to think twice next time.

4) sympathy. You felt bad. You felt your punishment was too harsh. So you relinquished. (But the punishment wasn’t too harsh. It established you as the authority first and final)

So you just frustrated me. And caused me to lose (some) respect.

And now………..

How to get it back? Respect, authority, and discipline. We both need it, we thrive in this relationship, and falter when we don’t stick to it.

So i forced David’s hand. Quite literally.

Our weekly maintenance spankings have a routine.

On the maintenance day, i get home from work and go straight into our bedroom. i undress. completely. 100% naked. i don’t speak to anyone for any reason.

i get the paddle out of the drawer.

i lean over the bed. The upper half of my body is laying flat on the bed, with the lower half off the bed with my feet on the floor.

And i place the paddle in the small of my back.

And wait.

When David comes in, he grabs the paddle and he warms my butt. And then he spanks. Until he thinks i’ve had enough to turn it red, remember who is in charge, and to be reminded to remember submission is what our house is about.

And typically, if i have accepted this spanking with grace, without complaint, or defiance – it ends with him rewarding me with his fingers finding the ultimate sweet spot between my legs. And i get to cum freely.

i decided to do just that… all that i said above. Without discussion or being on “the day” (Friday).

We haven’t talked about maintenance or any spanking in a longggggg time. And i had my fill. i was done waiting. i was done trying to leave hints. i decided it was long overdue.

So yesterday at the end of work, i went home and prepared as if it was “the day.” And i waited.

It didn’t take long and in came David. He made a comment, “oh, I see what you want.” And he picked up the paddle and turned my butt beet red. It was hot (literally and figuratively) when he was done. And throbbed for quite a few hours. He did it as if we had never stopped or had a recent break in routine.

When he was done, i told him he has to be in charge and be authoritative and stop second guessing discipline. He agreed.

So in a way, you could say i forced his hand. i forced domestic discipline. On my ass. And it hurt. But i was pleased.

Hugs,

Marie

57 – Plugged. Until further notice.

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So “the virus” has seriously caused me to be off-kilter or off-schedule or off-submission or off-DD. Or well… just “off”. Haven’t even posted… I’ve been that “off”.

And i learned some stuff about myself…. i do NOT submit well when it feels like everything is out of control. Or beyond my control. And i then (subconsciously) take back the control that i would otherwise given freely.

i have seen this behavior creeping in and David has allowed it. i say he’s “allowed” it because he hasn’t done anything (punishments!) to stop it, so by not stopping it, it was effectively allowed.

i admit – that upsets me. i wish he would stick to protocol and routine and enforce what we both like and know works! But he doesn’t and i didn’t either.

And today, i basically went over the edge of his tolerance for these allowances.

i won’t deny, today was basically intentional. It wasn’t me being a brat, so much as just being “in control” and testing David to see “how much is too much”.

What did i do, you ask?

First i took a bath. That doesn’t sound like much. But i take baths to soak, relax, and take “me” time. While David always approves, it is a rule that i am to ask permission to do so. i didn’t.

Then, i masturbated.

Then i inserted a plug in my ass. i rather enjoy the feeling. Most days. For awhile anyway. Of being filled. And it is a secret that no one can see or knows, except me. And David.

i told him i did these things. And when he asked me why. i said, “because i was feeling sexy and turned on and decided to satisfy myself.” His first response was a nod, eye brows raised and a sound that resembled a “hmm”. And he walked away.

About 5-minutes later, he texted me. (From him in the office of our home to me in the kitchen… not far!). And it said, “you didn’t ask”. i said, “i know. Should i take the plug out?”

And he said, “no. Not until tomorrow. And when I authorize it.”

Wow. Ok. Well. This will be a huge test. And ultimately feel like a punishment in the end. Admittedly- a deserved one!

i’ve never had a plug in for more than about 8-hours, and the few times i tried to sleep with it in, i failed.

How it feels:

The first few hours – a turn on, the next few hours – a bit uncomfortable, the last few hours – basically irritating and painful. And i ask to remove it and he agrees.

While he didn’t seem “mad”, i know he is…. or maybe the right word is disappointed.

This will be a test of my will power and endurance. And i wonder when i will break down and beg to be released. i don’t want to beg. Because i already know what he said – tomorrow. That should be enough. But i don’t know if i will make it. i will definitely be trying though!

And if i do beg – will he allow the release to happen.

Stay tuned. And until then, i am plugged until further notice.

Hugs,

Marie

DAY 7 : YOUR TOYBOX…What’s your favourite toy or item of equipment?

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i know i am behind… work has been crazy and has caused me to be away from you… so i will try to get caught up.

My favorite toy is the rabbit vibrator.

i love being told “start masturbating and don’t cum until i tell you.” And using my rabbit.

It’s a basic toy. i know. But sometimes, go back to the basics.

This is the second one i’ve had. i can cum faster than anything with that toy!

And just so you know… i have a large toy box.. handcuffs, finger cuffs, ropes, spreader bar, a lot of monster dildos, one that is custom made, inflatable dildo, a fist dildo, remote control bullets..

Oh speaking of bullet…Besides the rabbit, my 2nd fav toy is the remote control bullet. It is controlled by an app. Anywhere in the world. And when David takes control, it goes on/off at random times and is amazing!

Hugs,

Marie