66 – So maybe my trust is lacking….
i have noticed that, if i were to be completely honest with myself, i do hesitate. i really don’t mean to. But when Sir says do something, i question him….
Like when he said “assume the position” (see previous post) his exact words were “I think you should probably go assume the position”
And i hesitated. When he asked me why. i said, “you think… probably…. so is that an order? Or just some thoughts you had out loud? And did you mean NOW?”
He rolled his eyes and said, “the word ‘probably’ is more than 50% so you should assume I meant to do it. And I wouldn’t say it now if I didn’t want you to do it now”
And I said, “yes sir” and THEN did as i was told.
And then yesterday i also hesitated when he said to take my top off.
And now today…… when we left for work, he texted saying that when i get home, i am to go straight to the bedroom and “assume the position” (again).
Well…. his parents are in town and in our home…. and they will HEAR a spanking happening. So i said, “But Sir….” and he stopped me right there and said “as I already said and now completely believe to be fact, you clearly do NOT trust me enough. Do as I say and quit questioning me!”
Yes sir!
And so i will wait time see what tonight holds.
i clearly need to do better.
Hugs,
Marie