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207 – 24-hours. Is a long time.

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Today’s sexual escapade is….. an anal plug.

Yeah, i know, that doesn’t sound like a big deal anymore, right? Kinda not as it is part of my routine in a regular basis really. But today David (and i both) amped it up a notch.

It turned into a game today.

For whatever reason, that even i admit, i do not know WHY…. But …. i have had a “goal” of wearing an anal plug for a consecutive 24-hours. To date, i have never achieved this goal. The longest i’ve worn one was 12-hours, so a good long way still from the full 24-hours.

*** note to anyone wearing a plug long term — if your body says it hurts and it needs to come out: it should. It’s your body’s natural way of telling you something is not right. And if you ignore that body signal, and do NOT take it out, you could end up caused by bodily harm to yourself.

^^ this is why i have not ever made it 24-hours. My body says “nope. Done” and i listen to it!

So back to today…. Sir said he was going to insert the plug this morning. (Sometimes he tells me to do it.)

That means i get the plug ready with lube. And then i assume A position (not THE position to be spanked, but substantially similar too!) …. On the bed, on all 4’s, shoulder and head on bed, and both of my hands spreading apart my ass cheeks.

And in goes the plug! i feel it press to my hole and it just keeps going!

Sometimes Sir goes slowly, and sometimes not. Today, he did not. i (sort of) flinched as he pressed it in fully seating itself in my ass. i flinched at the very moment it pressed past my sphincter muscle. He said, “what? Why flinch? You should be used to this by now.”

“Yes, i should indeed. But today, it just felt like a bit ‘extra’ too”

He said, “hmm. Well. Maybe we need to do more of this.”

(As if to say i don’t already do it a lot!)

With that, i started off for the day.

After getting to work, i texted to remind him that i have a date night with a (plutonic) girlfriend where i’ll be home late.

** As an aside: i had previously obtained authority to go out with my friend-who-is-a-girl. While this isn’t officially a rule for me, i almost always do ask like this, “would it be ok if i went …..blah blah blah”. He typically asks details including where, when, cost, etc. And almost always Sir says yes. So despite the fact it isn’t a rule AND he almost always says yes, i do this as an extension of the rule “show respect at all times.” While it’s obviously not a requirement, it seems to me to be respectful to ask to be absent during what is typically “family time.”

In response to my reminder text, he asked me if i was going to wear the plug the entire time i was away, which would amount to having the plug in for about 15-16 hours.

(** it should be noted that it is expected that i always wear the plug, or any other device inserted/attached as long as possible or until Sir decides its time to come out, whichever comes first. But even if i need to take it out, i must ALWAYS ask. That permission is always granted, but it goes back to the “show respect” rule that generates the question. And it keeps David ultimately aware and more or less in control!)

i thought about his question for just a minute and said, “i’m not certain. i hope so. But if i get that far, i would think i could likely just go on to sleep and get the full 24-hours.”

To which Sir texted back, “there may be a reward if you do.”

And i wrote, “ Oohhh yeahhhhh??? What kind of reward???”

He said, “if the plug is there in the morning, when I tell you to Assume the Position for Maintenance, instead of being spanked, I will replace the plug with my cock and fuck your ass. If it’s not there, then maintenance may be particularly intense. Your choice.”

Oh wow!

So my ass will be fucked …. or spanked ….tomorrow morning. Pleasure or pain?!

** many of you might be thinking “PLEASURE? What pleasure?”. i’m sure you see this as a choice of pain INSIDE or pain OUTSIDE, but in no way is there PLEASURE. To each his own. i love anal sex and i find it a huge turn on! Even to the point that, without any touch to my pussy, i can achieve orgasm, which not everyone can do. It’s harder and definitely not as good, but it happens! Of course, i didn’t ask but i have to assume either way – fucked or spanked- i won’t be allowed to orgasm. Because it IS still NO-vember of course. And at this point already, i suspect that if i am anal fucked, i would orgasm easier than us usual!

*** i should also mention, NO-vember is about ME not orgasming. Nothing to say David is abstaining. i mean, why should he? Anytime he’s ever put me on EDGE and not allowed orgasm, he still does his thing… masturbate sometimes, but also uses my holes sometimes too. So even “if” he fucks me tomorrow, it will be for him to play with my mind… and possibly get himself off in the process too.

**** i should also say, i don’t see any of this as punishment, but a rather fun mind-game. It’s incredibly hard mind you, but absolutely still a fun game. i (strangely) enjoy this very much.

So…… What’s your bet — fucked or spanked?

Pain or Pleasure?

Orgasm or denial?

i have a feeling i know which of all those will be the likely outcome……. As the odds are NOT in y favor!

Hugs,

Marie

77 – Edging is working – as Sir intended

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While i’ve mentioned this, i haven’t talked too much about this week’s challenge or you could call it an assigned task. That was intentional because i was busy distracting myself from it with my Memoir story(s). But it’s never too far away either. 21-times, 7 days = edging. TO-THE-VERY-EDGE!

i am sooooo tempted to go over the edge. And i’m equally soooooo trying to obey. But Sir is making it hard. Intentionally. This is a fun game this week he is playing with me.

He said, “this will strengthen your self-discipline to listen and obey. It will also make you want me even more.”

Let’s just say it’s working!

The first night, he made me edge while watching a 30-minute porn video. He read his book while watching me. The girl in the video got to cum at the end. i did not. Sir kept saying, “don’t you dare cum!” all throughout. And when the porn star did, he asked me if i was jealous. (Uh, yeah!)

The second night, he played with my clit until i was so close to orgasm i arched my back and closed my eyes, which is when he slapped his hand down several times on my clit and said, “NO CUMMING for you.” It hurt! It definitely took me OFF the edge…. Until he resumed the process. Again and again.

The third night i had to get the remote control egg, turn it on, put it inside, and give him the remote. He turned it on and off most of the evening. All during dinner, watching tv, and of course getting ready for bed. Every time he could see me getting close, it went off. For about 10-minutes. And then it went back on. Over and over.

The fourth night has been the cruelest yet. He turned on porn again, got out the inflatable dildo and pushed it inside me. Then he pumped it up a few times, and told me to “move it in and out, make it fuck you… but remember… NO CUMMING!” That’s when he took off his clothes, laid on the bed, and masturbated beside me. He said, “look we are doing it together.” And laughed.

i asked if he’d put it in my puss and use me, and he said, “no, you might cum that way.” So i asked about my ass, and he said, “no, you’d cum that way too,”. And he proceeded to masturbate until he came. He kissed me and told me i was a good girl to use the dildo without cumming, and to stop and clean up and ready for bed.

Then on the 5th morning i was surprised to find my natural body-lubricating fluid dripping down my leg when he turned on the electric razor and it sounded like a vibrator. Pavlov’s dogs at its finest!

His last words to me every night are, “NO CUMMING”. And his last words in the morning before leaving are, “Be a Good Girl today!” And we both know what that’s intended to mean too.

To which i typically just say, “Yes Sir.”

Although this morning after he said it, i said, “Yes Sir… i know….”

He then said, “you said that with an attitude. Watch the tone! You can get as frustrated as you want, but pouting it inappropriate. Don’t think for a minute I won’t extend this for another week if I have to.”

i am beyond (sexually) frustrated. i was pretty cranky about this on Day 2 and i guess again today really with that smart-ass comment. i have to remind myself that this is good discipline and training. Everything good in life is worth waiting for. And to change my attitude. To be happy that i have a Sir wiling to care and love me so much he spends time with me, gives me instructions, and guidance to be a better submissive wife.

Tonight i was seriously trying to intentionally be positive about this and in doing so, i passed a test that i didn’t even know i had! Sir decided to masturbate… and cum… again. i didn’t know it, but he made sure to tell me.

When i said, “you didn’t use me. Why didn’t you have me help?” He said, “I was being selfish… because I can. What are you going to do about it??? I did get off to the thought of my ability to orgasm and your lack of it.”

i wasn’t sure what to say, so i just said, “i am happy to hear you were thinking of me. Thank you Sir.”

That’s when he added, “are you jealous?”

i responded with, “yes Sir. i really want to cum, but i know you know that. i’m just grateful you are my Dominant and you were thinking of me.”

That’s when he told me it was a test to see if i was going to pout, complain, whine, or otherwise be ungrateful. And if i had been, the time was going to be extended! But because i passed, i am scheduled to be done in 4-more-edging events… one more tonight, and 3-tomorrow. i feel sure Sir will allow me to cum this time tomorrow…. 24-hours and counting!!

So while i haven’t wanted these tests, i know it’s working! i am more submissive than i’ve been in awhile (overall, save the frustration part of course!) and i am doing it with love and kindness in my actions, thoughts, and words!

i even sent him this picture:

And told him “while we haven’t really been into positions much before, you know if you want to, you just need to let me know. And then after that, you can get me into whatever position you want in order to, say, service your cock.”

(We haven’t been into positions because it’s a challenge to do when you have a kid at home!)

i said, “if you want to, you could say for example, ‘get ready to please’, take my cock from my pants, and suck it until I tell you to stop”.

And i added, “you can just start telling me to kneel because it shows respect. Period. No other reason!”

And he said, “I think we’ll have to start that!”

So – yes – as much as i don’t want to admit it, edging is working as intended! i am more submissive than ever, wanting to please him more than ever, and hoping he will use me to make him happy – which will all make me extremely happy in the end!

i just want to cum already! 😩

Hugs,

Marie

38 – Orgasm control sucks

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So ever since i asked for a spanking, David has become ever the leader in our house. We had gotten away from DD … not from an intentional discussion or decision, but really just from “life” getting in the way.

And i realized how much i needed it, and i missed it, and i wanted it back. So i asked to be spanked. And i asked to go back to DD and him being the leader of our house. And ever since that day a month’ish ago…..

Now ….. he’s R-E-AL-L-Y in control.

And i didn’t appreciate how much control i had.

Specifically over my ability to pleasure myself and to orgasm.

But he wants control over my mind AND body. And in my head, i’m like, “YES! i want you in control.” But in my nether parts, i’m thinking more like, “he’s a man. He likes to be pleasured and i can get what i want by giving him what he wants”.

i tried hard to seduce Sir tonight. i was horny and wanted to have him. So i started by flirting. i did ask if i could kiss him. (He said yes). So i started out correctly. Then i sat beside him, took my top down, and started rubbing on him. Starting at his chest and working down.

And he grabbed my hand and said, “stop being so aggressive.”

i smiled and said, “i’d like to make you happy.”

He responded with, “NO, you want to make YOU happy.”

He knows me too well.

So he told me to stop or else i’d regret it. i didn’t. i kept on.

And he stood up and went and got the paddle.

He laid back down on the couch and looked me square in the eye with the paddle in hand and said, “are you sure you want to continue? You will regret it!”

So i stopped. And pouted. He told me to stop being a brat or else i’d regret that too.

Great. i’m turned on and can’t get him turned on. In all fairness, he WAS watching a tv show when i “got aggressive.”

So i sat on the floor next to him and waited. Topless of course.

When the second commercial came on, he said, “stand up.” So i did. And he said “because you made better choices in the end, i’m going to reward you. Show me that pussy.” So i lifted the nightgown i had on (a sexy one, not your grandma’s!) and because that was the only thing i had on, his tongue connected with my parts.

And oh-my…. i was in heaven and my eyes rolled back in my head. And when i asked if i could cum, he pulled away and said, “no.” And he was DONE.

What?? You are done?? You can’ttttttt be! NO… don’t stop…..

He said, “discipline. We need to work on it. With orgasms AND you’re ability to follow instructions the first time. Now go sit down and let me watch my show.”

So while i respect him, i don’t always listen to him. At least not the first time anyway. Ugh.

And he’s probably right about me needing to learn to listen the FIRST time, to follow directions, and understand great things come to those who wait. (Ok, fine…not “probably right”…. he IS right. Happy? i admitted it even to you!)

Additionally, there’s more than one way to get a point across. He didn’t have to use the paddle, just the sight of it and the orgasm control was all it took to have it’s full effect.

But now i reallyyyyyyyyyy want to cum.

When i told him that, he said, “maybe tomorrow.”

i’m going to struggle to wait til tomorrow. And i can only hope that tomorrow will be the day.

So that’s that. i officially don’t like orgasm control. But i do like David being in control…. i really do. i love him and our marriage…. leadership, denial, and punishments too. Really…. i mean it….punishments too – because while it hurts, it makes me show respect and submission and that is the biggest turn on of all!

Hugs,

Marie

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