38 – Orgasm control sucks
So ever since i asked for a spanking, David has become ever the leader in our house. We had gotten away from DD … not from an intentional discussion or decision, but really just from “life” getting in the way.
And i realized how much i needed it, and i missed it, and i wanted it back. So i asked to be spanked. And i asked to go back to DD and him being the leader of our house. And ever since that day a month’ish ago…..
Now ….. he’s R-E-AL-L-Y in control.
And i didn’t appreciate how much control i had.
Specifically over my ability to pleasure myself and to orgasm.
But he wants control over my mind AND body. And in my head, i’m like, “YES! i want you in control.” But in my nether parts, i’m thinking more like, “he’s a man. He likes to be pleasured and i can get what i want by giving him what he wants”.
i tried hard to seduce Sir tonight. i was horny and wanted to have him. So i started by flirting. i did ask if i could kiss him. (He said yes). So i started out correctly. Then i sat beside him, took my top down, and started rubbing on him. Starting at his chest and working down.
And he grabbed my hand and said, “stop being so aggressive.”
i smiled and said, “i’d like to make you happy.”
He responded with, “NO, you want to make YOU happy.”
He knows me too well.
So he told me to stop or else i’d regret it. i didn’t. i kept on.
And he stood up and went and got the paddle.
He laid back down on the couch and looked me square in the eye with the paddle in hand and said, “are you sure you want to continue? You will regret it!”
So i stopped. And pouted. He told me to stop being a brat or else i’d regret that too.
Great. i’m turned on and can’t get him turned on. In all fairness, he WAS watching a tv show when i “got aggressive.”
So i sat on the floor next to him and waited. Topless of course.
When the second commercial came on, he said, “stand up.” So i did. And he said “because you made better choices in the end, i’m going to reward you. Show me that pussy.” So i lifted the nightgown i had on (a sexy one, not your grandma’s!) and because that was the only thing i had on, his tongue connected with my parts.
And oh-my…. i was in heaven and my eyes rolled back in my head. And when i asked if i could cum, he pulled away and said, “no.” And he was DONE.
What?? You are done?? You can’ttttttt be! NO… don’t stop…..
He said, “discipline. We need to work on it. With orgasms AND you’re ability to follow instructions the first time. Now go sit down and let me watch my show.”
So while i respect him, i don’t always listen to him. At least not the first time anyway. Ugh.
And he’s probably right about me needing to learn to listen the FIRST time, to follow directions, and understand great things come to those who wait. (Ok, fine…not “probably right”…. he IS right. Happy? i admitted it even to you!)
Additionally, there’s more than one way to get a point across. He didn’t have to use the paddle, just the sight of it and the orgasm control was all it took to have it’s full effect.
But now i reallyyyyyyyyyy want to cum.
When i told him that, he said, “maybe tomorrow.”
i’m going to struggle to wait til tomorrow. And i can only hope that tomorrow will be the day.
So that’s that. i officially don’t like orgasm control. But i do like David being in control…. i really do. i love him and our marriage…. leadership, denial, and punishments too. Really…. i mean it….punishments too – because while it hurts, it makes me show respect and submission and that is the biggest turn on of all!
Hugs,
Marie