The chastity belt is seemingly something that David thinks is good…. and seems to be Christmas in July for me!
While David wasn’t happy that i can’t keep my hands off my clit (causing the need for the belt), the chastity was really my idea as a solution. So i did the research, found one and ordered it. Of course, he didn’t argue or disagree, and ultimately i got his approval prior to ordering it…. so he clearly approves the idea of it.
But then…. my mind is my own worst enemy…. i wasn’t too sure when he saw it what he’d actually think. And whether this was one of MY ideas, and NOT being very submissive at all was a question in my own mind.
i guess i am one who needs reassurance. A lot of it. And when he didn’t say much about it, i just wasn’t too sure either. And i started to doubt.
But now as the day has gone on, i can tell he does like it. He told me he “liked snapping the lock in place and knowing (he) has complete control, especially when we are apart.”
Then i sent him some pictures. And he responded with “love that!”
Just now i asked him “do you have a plan for when you will release me?”
And he said, “the 31st”….. which is 2-weeks from now. i truly think he was kidding, but maybe that’s just me kidding myself.
i did say that if “you have me in it that long, you may as just make it a permanent thing.” To which he responded with, “hmmmm”.
So maybe i’ll be in it for awhile, or maybe no time at all….. i just don’t know.
But my doubt has subsided too!
And a few hours later…..
He released me. To which i was glad because the chafing did indeed start. i could tell some adjustments were needed.
In doing research, i found a lot of belts priced from $150’ish to (quite literally) $1,000+. The $150 are made in China, and like everything there, it’s made on the cheap. The $1,000+ are custom made with lotssssss of tailoring specific measurements.
The China ones are considered to be “starter” ones, and that’s what i got. So while there’s a lot of places to adjust the fit, ultimately, it is made on the cheap and (likely) to cause chafing somewhere/sometime.
So while i made adjustments and will just take time to adjust to, David definitely decided i will wear it again but not 24/7 either.
My thoughts on chastity….
To be honest, though….. i’d kinda like to try wearing it full time. i’d like to have it put back on, the key taken away, and when i want out it has to be asked for and (clearly) approved.
Why? Well, when i had it on, it was a solid (pun intended – get it – metal is solid?!? 😂🤣) reminder that i AM submissive.
And as a submissive – i am NOT in control. And i do NOT hold the key! In fact, i (literally and figuratively!) gave that key to my Sir. And not being able to touch the most private parts of myself without permission and being allowed, feels like the ultimate submission for me.
But David disagrees. And he does not want me to wear it full time. i am a bit disappointed that’s how he feels, but he DID decide this. So as such, i need to respect and appreciate and be happy in that decision! He is my Sir and i am his submissive. And no matter what he decides about anything, even though i have the ability to share my opinions (and trust me, i do!) when his opinion is one i don’t agree with, i have to respect and abide by it in the end.
Maybe this chastity thing is just my newest shiniest toy and i need to recognize thats “all” it is or might be!
So i did not sleep in chastity.
Now today….. Sunday….
Even with David saying no to full-time, with these adjustments in place, i am back in chastity now as i type this.
Going to church on this Sunday morn.
And let’s do a check –
Bra – nope.
Steel panties – yep!
i’ll just have to see how long this goes today. i kinda hope a longgggg time. Maybe overnight and into tomorrow! 😉