So because i mentioned it before and in a few comments, i’ve been asked for an update, i decided to do just that… update you.
i’ve been doing a LOT of research. i’ve found a lot of chastity belts… gag gifts, very (VERY!) pricey, effective but not for me, ineffective and probably only good for pictures, and …. well… one that i have on order.
i rarely take (sexual/ naked) pictures of myself … and those that i do, only go to my husband… and never with my face…. but i promise you, if this one works as i hope it does, i’ll post a picture for you. 🙂
CHASTITY BELT – WHY?!?
Okay, well, let’s review…. my husband and Sir, is the head of our house and of me. i am submissive. He has been trying to train me that my private parts are for him. And i’m only allowed to make myself happy with permission. This means that i am open to his touch whenever he wants to and if i want it by my own touch, i have to ask to masturbate and/or orgasm.
He feels this is the ultimate in submission because it forces me to ask to touch myself in a most intimate way and it forces me to NOT be selfish to satisfy my OWN needs without permission. And frankly, while i don’t particularly like this rule, it is what it is and i can see his point.
i don’t like the rule because he makes me ask in person. It is VERY humbling (and submissive!) to say, “May i have permission to masturbate and to cum please Sir?”
And the seconds between that sentence and the answer sometimes feel like an eternity.
He frequently says yes, but sometimes he does indeed say no.
i think he says no for two reasons: 1) i tend to ask a lot (3-5x’s a week on average – and sometimes multiple times in the same day)…. and 2) because he can. And by saying no, it is an effective rule that i know requires no explanation, no further discussion, and is the final answer.
Well – the “NO” answer is what has led to this place. i’ve tried to be good. i’ve tried to accept that “NO” as his decision. i’ve tried to ignore the desire. But sometimes…. the more i try to ignore it, the more it becomes a ‘thing’ that i can’t successfully ignore.
So similar to a child doing something in secret and hoping to not be caught, i sneak into the closet and do it anyway.
And truly, i have done it and was not caught.
But my guilty conscious weighs heavy.
And i confess.
And i’m punished. Typically with a very intensive spanking, standing in the corner to contemplate it, and sometimes a second spanking.
But …. while that works ‘that day’, it hasn’t been a permanent solution…. and it’s rather detective than preventive.
So David decided i needed to research and find and buy a female chastity belt that was reasonably priced, effective, and able to be worn for long(er) periods of time.
And i’ve done just that.
And as mentioned, we have one on order.
i’ll make you wait to hear more though…. next post my friends. 🙂
(Am i being mean to make you wait?!? David makes me wait to cum…. so i’ll make you wait to hear about the chastity belt…. ha!)
i will leave you with this interesting article i found – Top 10 Facts About Chastity Belts…..https://www.top10hq.com/top-10-facts-about-chastity-belts/