28 – Day dreaming

I daydream… a lot. Especially about DD or maybe it’s D/s. I dunno. What I know is that I daydream way more about things that Sir could do and he doesn’t.

I debate if/when i should tell him about these daydreams. Because I think about things he could do to assert husband dominance over me. But if I tell him, wouldn’t that be “topping from the bottom”?! Wouldn’t it be me telling him how to do his job?

Let me be clear…..I’m NOT saying what he does is bad, it’s just not to the extreme levels that if i were in charge that i’d do to him. So I day dream about things he might could/ would do to me!

Give you an example? okay…..

So he cooks, i clean. That’s been our ‘thing’ since … well…forever. So as he’s cooking, i get to do “whatever” i want. And typically that’s watch t.v. Because i can. i wouldn’t allow it if things were reversed.

i day dreamed tonight about him saying, “While i cook, you need to ……… “…. what would you say? What would the BLANK be? FILL IN THE BLANK FOR ME!?!?!

And then i dreamed about how when he was eating, that i shouldn’t be. That he should have made me wait. And…… well….. the last one, i asked you what you’d suggest, this one i’ll tell you what i was thinking.

We have a teen son. So i can’t be naked, kneeling, etc. But there can be things done right under his nose… like he could have applied nipple clamps and made me “act normal” over dinner. And when i wasn’t able to maintain composure for the duration, tell our son “your mom is acting weird. Why is that Mom?” and i’d (of course) have to lie… which would earn me a spanking of monumental proportions after the fact.

And when it was time to spank, it would DEFINITELY make me cry. i’d be like, “we do NOT lie in this house!” SMACK!

And speaking of spanking… or discipline…. i’d be like… SMACK…. SMACK… SMACK. And when that ass was BRIGHT RED…. i’d make me stand… naked… in the corner. Hands behind the head. And nose touching the wall. And ass sticking out. And i’d make me stand there for 10-minutes.

At the end of 10, i’d make me get back on the bed with the ass in the air. And ready for “round 2”. And repeat it ALL-OVER-AGAIN.

And i’d force it to happen over and over again … until finally the tears fall … heavily! And until i was begging to please stop. And then beg some more.

As i type all this, i feel wet at these thoughts. i wonder if i should tell Sir this is what he can (and should) do… but again… wouldn’t that be ME being in charge of ME?!? Maybe Sir will read this and take my lead…. but isn’t that being passive-aggressive now?!?

Hmmm…. no idea how to proceed. i guess i’ll just keep telling you all my thoughts. And one day i’ll figure it alllllllll out. 🙂

~ Marie


  1. Now Marie, I can’t keep myself from commenting. 😉 I love this particular post!!!! I’ve had the Master that you don’t “tell” anything to. You can ask if it’s possible or express an interest. I have the Daddy now that I express interest and it gets logged into the banks of fun things to do. If it pleases Daddy, out of the blue the scenerios.

    I like this post so much because I would like more Husband control in our day-to-day marriage, too. There is a distinct place for me as being His property, but not a real sense of 24/7 like I was hoping for. I don’t know quite how to tell Him I want more. We’ve had some struggles in Him exerting enough Dominance for me overall… and now that things are really good… how do I tell Him I want more?

    I feel ya, sistah! The struggle of being a sub is real! Put our heads together and see what we can come up with???


  2. I do not believe that it’s wrong or being in charge of yourself to explain to him your desires. Yes, you are to obey him and do whatever he says, as long as it doesn’t violate the word of God. But just explaining your heart to him and what’s on your heart, does not mean that you are being in charge. It just means that you have your own desires, that God gave you. I think you should tell him. And I think that he has an obligation before you and God to hear your heart and what you have to say.

    As far as filling in the blank, when he says while I cook you blank. I would say that while she cooks, you set the table. Or while he cooks you go stand in the corner in the bedroom as a way of keeping your submission. Something like that.

    And you say you have a teenage son, so you cannot kneel or walk around naked. Maybe you could save those things when your son’s not home.

    Just my thoughts on what you wrote. Have a great day

    • I appreciate and like your comment. Thanks for the perspective. I’m glad to hear it’s not topping from the bottom.

  3. I have the same struggles! I want to be dominated totally and I am hoping that at some point My husband can really get into this! He wants to take it slow but I think this would be a good gradual way to help me and him work his way into really beating my ass till I cry! I haven’t been a very submissive wife and it’s time to make that lifestyle change and have him in total control! I think being put in a corner and made to get back into spanking position again and again would really make me cry! Hope you get your wish! Rene

    • I couldn’t agree more. Being put in the corner, naked, and then spanked.. hard… is about as perfect as it gets. But not every husband is aware that’s how we think or what we desire. I’m not sure if it’s good for me to tell you this, when I’m not always doing it myself, but, I’d encourage you to tell him you want more! I hope one day we will both be to the place that we desire! ❤️

  4. Definitely talk with him. Talking about your wants and needs is important in any D/s relationship. No, it is not topping from the bottom to talk about these things in a healthy way. It is all in how you phrase it I think. Example “I wrote up a list of things I would enjoy, would you look it over and see if any of them would please you?”

  5. Hi Marie,

    Firstly, thank you for your excellent posts. Having only recently discovered your blog I’ve been following through your posts in date order from the start and it’s been such a buzz reading how things have progressed as your journey has unfolded. I greatly enjoy your wrting style.

    I’d like to also endorse the idea of discussing your desires with your husband, when appropriate and in a way that makes it clear these are your needs/thoughts rather than as demands or expectations, recognising that your husband will make the decisions. He can’t easily fulfil desires of which he is unaware! I think it is particularly important that you articulate your thoughts as even the most perceptive dom is not a mind reader. It is not easy for a person to know when another’s limits have been reached, so communication is essential. To know that your outward signs of distress are not necessarily reflective of your true needs is important. It is obvious from your posts that he loves you and has not misused the power you have given him and maybe he holds back because he’s not aware of how far you need to go. You clearly trust him, so trust that he can take your thoughts and needs and create an even better relationship based in a more complete knowledge of you.

    As for tasks while he’s cooking dinner, I’d have a protocol whereby some task was set during the day for you to complete, or alternatively you could report to him and ask if there was anything he required of you.

  6. Sometimes I’ll be thinking I’m in for a punishment, but then all Husband does is pray with me.
    And I don’t want to be ungrateful because I KNOW prayer is far more important than a spanking, but I can’t help but think that a spanking might be more effective in the immediate at least.
    Your blog has made me realize I can ask for more thorough punishments though. Next time he offers up a prayer, maybe I will request a spanking ‘for my own good’ as well.

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